I would like to share my experience about when I was drinking last night and how I'm noticing the differences between when I hadn't drank in years and the way I feel now that I had a night full of drinking. âðŧ
Last night I was cutting loose, I was having fun, and I did things I wouldn't normally do. That was last night. I can't really complain too much about the way my night went. ðĪŠ
But, today.... I'm noticing that I'm not exactly all the way engaged in life. I just don't feel connections the way I did when I wasn't drinking. I'm not attached to my feelings. Meaning, I don't feel like I'm even alive. I feel like I'm a ghost in the shell, and like my body isn't even really here. I had a conversation with one of my best friends tonight over the phone, and even though I was there and engaging in the conversation, now that I'm thinking about our conversation, I felt like I just wasn't spiritually in tune with God the way I was before I decided to drink. ðĪ
When we prayed together at the end of the conversation, I didn't give it 150% like I usually do. I feel like I rushed through the prayer and like my words hardly had any feelings behind them. ðĪ·ðŧââïļ
The only reason I really even drank is because I'm quitting vaping THC and quitting vaping Nicotine. I do not agree with my choice to replace it with something that is far less addicting to me and might help benefit me in the long run in order to help me quit, because I can feel that my choice to drink is ruining my connection with God, and that scares me, because I love and respect The One True Lord, our Father, our God so very much. ð
I am sharing this because I want to admit how this made me feel after just one night of drinking, letting loose, and having fun. I want other people to understand their choices and how this can destroy your connection with the Lord. I want our connections with Yahuah to be strong and holy, holy, holy, because our Lord, God, is Holy Holy Holy! ððŧ
Here's to you and your recovery from your addictions, and I am praying that this message has helped you with your own struggles you may be facing in order to get right with our Magnificent, Awesome and Wonderful God! âĪïļ
How has this post helped you to see how you can better your connection with God by letting go of addictions? Do you have any experiences that this has reminded you of that can help somebody else break their cycle of addiction? Will you post your stories in the comments so that this can help someone else who might be struggling with an addiction of their own? ððŧ